Abby and Amy: Three Months

Another month older!  I feel like we are starting to see their personalities blossom a little bit at this point.  Abby is a cuddler.  She loves resting her head on my shoulder and is content to just stay there.  Amelia is a bit squirmier.  She prefers when I help her stand and likes to look at me.  She's also a pro scooter!  Just like Allie was able to, Amelia can scoot herself around the crib and can wiggle her way out of her swaddle.  Then she will repeatedly hit Abby in the face until they are both awake.  Needless to say, we are avoiding this situation for now.  More on the sleep situation below.

 We had their 2 month visit about 3 weeks ago--Abby was 9 lbs 13.5 oz and Amelia was 8 lbs 7.5 oz.  They are both officially on the regular growth chart now!  Amelia is just BARELY on there at 0.5% percentile but she made it!  Their height and head circumference are pretty much the same at 20" and 14.6".  Because they are still small, we are having to see the doctor again in a couple of weeks instead of just the normal 4 month visit.

Neither seemed to handle the pain of getting their shots very well.  Once we got home, before either of them would eat, I had to give them Tylenol.  They slept FOREVER and then finally took a bottle again.  It is very unlike Abby to not eat anything so I knew it was really bothering her.  Thankfully, once the medicine kicked in they both seemed okay.

Both girls are still in size 1 diapers and are wearing the same size clothes they were last month--Amy is still fitting in newborn and Abby is in 0-3 or 3 month.

Sleep has improved dramatically this month but it's going to be confusing to try to explain what we do.  We didn't really follow a set schedule for most of the month but we did make sure to stick to feeding them every 3 hours until the evening time.  We try to feed them twice between the hours of 5-8, whether that is at 5, then 7 OR at 6, then at 8 it doesn't matter.  Then, we let them decide when they will eat next.  Sometimes they sleep until 3-4 the next morning, sometimes they wake up around 11 pm.  If they do wake up again at 11, they will sleep FOREVER.  I typically have to wake them up to take Allie to school.  The first night they slept through the night, they were wearing matching footie pajamas.  So now we refer to them as "the magic PJs" and try to put the twins in them as much as possible.  The amount they are eating has increased since longer sleep=less opportunities to feed.  We give them a little more than 3.5 oz in each bottle.  They are sleeping in their Rock N Plays exclusively right now because every time I lay them in their crib, they spit up all over each other.  Until we can get their reflux under control and until we get them a second crib, they are doing just fine in the RnP.

**Update** So, I drafted this post a couple of days before they turned 3 months old.  Over the weekend, Thursday-Sunday, I started feeding them every 3 hours starting at 7 am and stopping at 10 pm and every night they slept all the way through!  We are loving it and are going to do everything we can to keep it up during this next month.

(Amelia)

Amelia is finally eating her full bottles every time and doesn't give us any issues when we feed her.  She used to always squirm around and just have the hardest time with eating from her bottle.  Up until about 10 weeks old, then everything changed and she did just fine.  She sometimes eats faster than Abby at this point.

Their fussiness is also much improved now!  It peaked around 8-9 weeks and everything has been smooth sailing since then.  We are finally starting to get some smiles.  We have to work really hard to see it though.  We get a lot of leg pumps and it seems like they are trying to smile.  They sometimes 'coo' but mostly it's still just crying that we hear from them.  They hate tummy time and are just now starting to actually lift their heads when they are on the ground.  Amelia is better at it than Abby currently.  Abby just tends to fall asleep and then she gets so so mad when you turn her back over.

(Abby)

I feel 100% recovered at this point.  Over the past month, I lost another 10 pounds so I am just working on the last 10 pounds and then I will be back at my pre-pregnancy weight.  I did sign up to do a half marathon in March and Carson and I are currently doing a Whole 30 this month.  I'm pretty sure with those 2 things going on, I should be back to where I was soon.  My Aggie ring fits, but barely and can be difficult to take on and off.  I occasionally will put it on but if I try to take it off at the end of the night, I need to use lotion to get it over my knuckle.

Abby and Amy: One Month

The girls turned one month old yesterday!  (And today was my due date!)

We brought Abby and Amy home after 15 days in the NICU.  We are so thankful that even though they needed some extra time in the hospital, that it was mostly for observation.  They were off all of their IVs and tubes by the end of their first week.  It was devastating not being able to see them or hold them right off the bat but we knew they were in excellent care with the nurses and doctors and it gave me the time I needed to recover from my C-Section.  I can't imagine coming home with a newborn after having major surgery.

(Amelia)

The NICU had them on a great schedule that we have stuck with since bringing them home.  They eat 3 ounces every 3 hours:  8, 11, 2, 5, 8, 11, 2, 5.  We wake them up, feed them, burp them, change them and put them back to sleep after about 45 minutes.  When we first brought them home, it was taking us a full hour to do everything (even when we were together) but we have all gotten much more efficient.  There is typically 1 or 2 times during the day when one will wake up early and will stay awake until the next feeding.  We have started tracking their day a little closer to see if we can find a pattern.

(Abby)

We saw our pediatrician a couple of days after bringing them home.  Abby was 5 lbs 8 oz and Amelia was 4 lbs 12 oz.  We will go again in about a week and I can't wait to see what Amelia is now.  When we brought them home, they were taking about 2 ounces each feed and they are now regularly taking 3 ounces or more.  We are still bottle feeding.  I really need to be more diligent about trying to breastfeed but I'm so terrified that they will start losing weight.  I also really love the convenience of our schedule and I know that will likely change if we lose the bottles.

(Abby)

We are going through diapers at an astonishing rate.  The NICU sent us home with 2 bags of Preemie diapers and we bought 2 more ourselves (Preemie diapers ONLY come in small bags with 27 diapers from what we can tell).  Once we ran out of those bags, we moved Amelia up to Newborn diapers and we haven't had any issues.  Both girls are starting to really fill out their Newborn onesies but I don't think they'll be moving up any time soon.

(Amelia)

We are being a little more cautious with taking the girls out since they are still so small.  We have taken them to Target once (without Allie) and all 5 of us went to Carson's cousins house once without any issues!  Once they get their shots, we will start taking them out more.

My recovery has been going well.  The first couple of days after they were born were much harder than I was expecting.  I wanted to be able to walk around right away and that was really not an option.  (Recovering from Allie's birth was SO much easier.)  I slept on the couch for the first week and a half and had to take the pain pills they prescribed me for about that long as well.  I lost about 30 pounds in the first 2 weeks but I am still having significant pain in my wrist and fingers on my left hand.  My rings still do not fit.  I have been going on walks in the evening, which has been wonderful.

I'll probably jinx myself by saying this, but so far it hasn't been as difficult as I thought it would be to have the twins home with us.  Right now they are on such a great schedule that the predictability of it has made it SO much easier than when we first brought Allie home.  I really think nothing will top the difficulty of being a first time parent.

TWINS!

On Friday, May 6th at 1:00 pm and 1:01 pm, our baby girls were born.  Abigail Jean (Baby A) was 4 pounds 11 ounces and Amelia June (Baby B) was 4 pounds 1 ounce.

To back up a little bit...once I hit about 32 weeks, our weekly scans with the specialist revealed that Baby B's growth had slowed significantly.  For most of the pregnancy, the girls hovered between 10-20% on the growth charts.  At this appointment, B had dropped to 5%.  2 weeks later, I had another growth scan and she had dipped below 5%.  The specialist changed their recommendation for a 37 week delivery to a 35-36 week delivery.  I met with my regular doctor at 34 weeks and we scheduled my C Section for Monday, May 9.  I would be 35 weeks, 6 days.  The following week, at 35 weeks, I went for another NST and the babies did not look as good as they had previously.  The nurses hooked me up to an IV and did an ultrasound to check on the babies.  Both babies looked okay enough that they allowed me to go home but my doctor gave me the option of delivering that day if I thought that would be best.  I left it up to her (since she was the doctor, after all).  She told me to come back again on Friday and to make sure that I had my bags packed.  If the babies didn't look stellar on Friday, they weren't going to play around, we would be having the babies that day.

On Friday, Carson and I went to the hospital for the NST.  We had talked about it and decided that if the option was given to us again, we would go ahead with having the babies that day.  When they hooked me up to the monitor, I was having somewhat regular contractions and that was actually causing Baby A distress.  Since A had shown no previous signs of problems, it concerned the doctor enough that they decided to admit me and push me to the front of the line to have a C-Section.
Everything after that was a whirlwind.  By 12:30, I was in the operating room getting prepped.  Just 30 minutes later, both babies were out!

Both babies were breech and Abigail came out feet first.  Once Abby was out, Amelia's arm started coming out first so the doctor actually gave me a shot to relax my uterus and performed a version so she could pull Amelia out head first.  It turns out that Abby's cord was in between her legs, which was causing her to not respond well to the contractions I was having.  It was really a blessing that we had come in on Friday and not waited until the weekend to have another NST.

When the babies were born, Amelia was actually doing much better than Abby despite being significantly smaller and got much higher APGAR scores.  They wrapped them up and showed them to us.  All I could think was how small their little faces were.  Carson got to hold them briefly, then they were whisked away to the NICU.  (Little did I know, I wouldn't see them again for another 24 hours.)  Once the doctor was finished with me, they wheeled me into an observation room where I could not stop shaking.  I felt like my teeth were going to break from chattering SO much.  Carson was able to check in on the babies as they got settled in the NICU.  He had to leave once they started working on placing the IV in their cord and came back to check on me.  I was still shaking uncontrollably.  After about an hour, they took me to a recovery room.  About this time, another patient started hemorrhaging so no one checked on me for about 3 hours.  Thankfully I had brought my own pump, and I was able to pump around 4 o'clock so the babies would have something to eat in the NICU.

 Amelia

Abby

All through that first night, I pumped every two hours.  Every two hours, Carson would take milk over to the babies, then he would wash my pump parts.  Every time I pumped, I got less and less.  By about midnight, I wasn't even getting a drop.  I hadn't had anything to eat since 6 AM on Friday.  After almost 24 hours of not eating, my body didn't have anything left.  I was finally able to eat breakfast at 9 and that made a significant difference in my production.

It wasn't until 1 PM on Saturday that I was able to get out of bed.  I took a shower and Carson grabbed a wheelchair so he could take me over to the NICU to see the babies.

The girls were born at 35 weeks, 3 days.  They stayed in the NICU for 15 days.  While a C-Section and NICU stay might not have been my ideal way to start their lives, I'm so thankful about how everything happened.  As a mother, I'm constantly being reminded that this is all in God's hands and he really does know what is best.  The girls are here and are healthy and that is all that matters.

40 Days

We're 40 days away from what I am deeming my unofficial due date, May 10.  I will be 36 weeks on that day and I hope and pray that the twins stay put until at least then. 

The only word to describe Carson's and my initial reaction to having the twins is shock.  Carson and I had both taken off work the day we had our first ultrasound and we had originally planned on having a fun day date afterwards.  Instead, we came straight home and sat on the couch...barely speaking.  We both had a million questions and concerns but the shock initially just...silenced us.

Will I be able to breastfeed?  Yet to be determined, but I really hope so.  I've been reading as much as I can about it and I know it CAN be done. 

Will I be able to deliver naturally?  Yet to be determined, but I would love to be able to.  I already know it will be different.  To be honest, this was one of the first things that I grieved about (for lack of a better term) when I found out we were having twins.  Looking back on Allie's birth, there's not a single thing that I would change and the thought of having a repeat experience was immediately taken from me when we saw the ultrasound screen.  The stars have to align for my doctor to allow me to have a natural delivery: they both have to be head down, they have to be very close to the same weight, no induction, and they have to be healthy.  I hate my doctor.  And I have hated this entire time how she has been so hell-bent on having a C-section.  IF I deliver naturally, I will have to have an epidural and will have to deliver in an operating room, in case an emergency C-section is required.  So far, we have never seen both babies with their heads down.  On Tuesday, Twin A was breech and Twin B was transverse.  There is a small part of me that just hopes that they don't get in the correct position.  If they do turn and for whatever reason, I'm not able to try to deliver naturally, I think I will be even more upset about losing that opportunity.  However, if they never turn and C-section is our only option, I will feel more at ease.  To be honest, having a C-section terrifies me and opens up so many more questions that I have.  For now, I'm just trying not to think about it too much.
 
How will Allie feel?  I'm still so worried about this.  Initially, Allie was just getting a sibling.  Now she is getting 2 siblings that are already going to have this incredible bond.  Will she feel left out? 

Will I ever sleep again?  Another thing I'm just trying not to think too much about.  Thankfully, now that twins are in our life, we are seeing twins pop up everywhere!  People that have found out that I am having twins have been very quick (but not annoyingly so) to tell me that it is not double the work, that everything will be okay, and that a schedule is KEY.  The twin community seems to be very much more supportive than the singleton community--where it sometimes feels like everyone is just out to point out the things you're doing wrong.

Will they be healthy?  Still a huge concern of ours.  There are a couple of things that have been found on the ultrasound that would suggest otherwise...or...could mean nothing at all.  We won't know until I deliver.

They can't merge together, can they?  This was a HUGE concern of mine in the beginning!  It's crazy how much we have learned about twins and how much we didn't know that we didn't know!  I was terrified that if they got too close they would become conjoined somehow, but I quickly learned that that all depends on when the egg splits.

Are they identical?  Our girls are considered Mono-Di twins, which means they are sharing a placenta but are in separate sacs.  In other words, yes, they are identical.  To me, they look pretty different in the ultrasound pictures and I'm kind of hoping they aren't COMPLETELY the same.  One less thing to think about for the rest of my life, "Now, which one are you again?"

What will I look like after this?  I don't even care that this is incredibly selfish.  Bouncing back from one baby was not a problem at all and I had not a care in the world about bouncing back from the second pregnancy until finding out there were 2... Now I'm terrified that I won't ever feel or look like I did before.

How in the world are we going to do this?  Yet to be determined.

Do we need a bigger car?  Thankfully, we went with the almost full-size SUV when we upgraded my car a couple of years ago.  We bought narrow infant car seats and it may be tight for a while until Allie is bumped up to a booster seat, but we're going to make it work!

What am I going to do about work?  I'm going to take a break from working.  Carson and I decided that at the end of the day, if we're trying to split our time between work, kids, and each other that we would both be at the end of our rope.

Can we afford 3 kids in daycare--2 being infants?  The answer is yes, but we decided that it just isn't worth it. 

Will I be able to handle staying at home?  We shall see!

How much more stuff are we going to need?  We're hoping to keep excess stuff to a minimum.  We still need to buy a few things, but we're going to try to wait on most things until we truly feel like we NEED them.

In many ways, this pregnancy has been easier than the first.  I knew a little bit about what to expect.  My body definitely knew a little bit about what to expect.  I haven't had the pelvis pain or popping that I had before and haven't had the need to wear any type of support.  I'm doing my best to take it easy.  I'm very ready to quit working but everything is going really well so far so there is no reason to stop just yet.

Hopefully these babies stay put for 40 more days!